Some people’s God is my devil

When I read this over on a Facebook page for Roberts Liardon’s Gods Generals I had no idea that later in the day this quote by Smith Wigglesworth would be applicable to me.

If you read over the last few posts in this blog, you may spot a trend. I generally post about things that God is doing in my life at the time and alot of the posts are referring to walking in the spirit and not in the flesh, not leaving yourself wide open to the devil by doing things that God would not want you to do.

I made some wrong choices a number of years ago and basically walked right out Gods will. Because of this, I encountered what it was to live in the wilderness. I was encouraged recently by reading Kathryn Kuhlmans Daughter of Destiny for the second time (It felt like it was the first time I was reading it), Kathryn encountered a wilderness of her own, she too stepped right out of the will of God and experienced the wilderness for herself. She knew exactly what she was doing but didn’t anticipate the outcome, but, once she realised that there was no satisfaction being outside of Gods will, she repented, gave up what it was she was doing outside of Gods will, and God forgave her and continued to lead and guide her as if the past no longer existed.

When God started to draw me back to him, I remember prouncing up and down my carpet speaking to the Lord and just kept saying sorry for what I had done in my past, it wasn’t the first time I had repented, but as I was repenting once again for the same things, the Holy Spirit just told me to stop looking back and press on ahead. When the Holy Spirit told me that, I knew clearly that the past was gone and could no longer bind me or restrict me from moving forward. God isn’t interested in going back or making us suffer for our wrong choices, once we repent, and I really mean repent, God is ready to move us on.

I realised out of everything, the worst of it all was that I no longer had fellowship with The Holy Spirit. It even saddens me now to think of it, but also makes me rejoice that God by his grace bought me back because he loves me.

So heres the thing, one of the things I have had to give up is going out with my friends on the town. Since God has been bringing me back to Him it’s like I have been placed in Holy Spirit school! Totally under grace, and since this time, I knew I could no longer go out drinking with friends because it wasn’t the environment God wanted me to be in. If I did go out, I was not only grieving the Holy Spirit, but I was leaving myself wide open for the devil to get in, not only that, but because the Holy Spirit clearly told me to stop going out and getting drunk! Yowzers!

Well, because I have not gone out, you can imagine, my friends are wondering whats up! I got a txt msg from my friend today asking me to meet up for a drink because we had not been out together for a while. I would have to admit, when I got that text, I felt sad, simply because I knew it wasn’t her fault that I wasn’t going out anymore as well as knowing she simply would not understand why I was not going out.

It kind of upset me a bit, because I knew in my heart it was something I had to let go of. I started talking to God about it, and this was when the Holy Spirit reminded me of the saying “Some people’s God is my devil”. As soon as I was reminded of those few words I read this morning, it all became clear. People in the world don’t really have much and when you word 9-5 and the only fun you get is to go out on a weekend with friends, it does become something important. Fellowship with friends regardless of who you are, christian or not, is something we all miss if it isn’t there.

When that txt came I was considering whether it would be ok to go out, I missed my friend, missed the people I would see out and just generally missed the fun we had when we were out, but, I knew that if I went, then I would be going against everything that the Holy Spirit had been teaching me. For my friend, going out is like a God in the sense that it is the only fun and fellowship she gets, for me, it was a temptation from the devil.

When I stepped out of Gods will all those years ago, I left my church and moved back to my hometown. When God started to bring me back to him early this year, I knew I had to sell my home and move back to the town where my church is, I also knew I could no longer continue living a life that although was normal to the world, it was not a life which pleased God.

So now, I am selling my house and on my way back, right back into His will, but it is still hard not to hang out with those friends, especially when I have no fellowship with Christians, so when temptation comes, its hard, but, I have the best fellowship ever with the Holy Spirit who is always one step ahead of me, just as he was today.

Praise God for never forsaking us.

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